am i dead?

So I've been updating my tumblr with my Bamboozle To-Do List and I figured I'd post it here just for shits and giggles. :D

( my strength is as the strength of ten because my heart is pure )

Next post will be my summer To-Do List. And you can bet Misha Collins will be on it. DAMN Castiel makes me all a-flutter. ♥

Okay wow I must go to sleep. I stayed up until 7:20 AM last night. Uh, this morning. !! :D

i believe. not in god, not in a deity, not in some higher power. i believe in love. i believe love has the power.

nowadays, people are falling into the hedonistic. all this about abortion and divorce and same-sex marriages is leading us astray from our path, the path chosen to us by god. they say, stay away from the sins of others. they say, god has shown us the way to eternal life.

what has god shown me? if god does not believe in the beauty and peace of love, then it is god who is a sinner. it is god who does not understand.

if this god you speak of doesn't believe in what i believe in, then he is not my god. he is not. not.

if this god everyone speaks of doesn't believe in the peace of his people but of the warring of nations over petty things such as money and oil and holy land, then he is not my god. if god believes in the genocide of thousands of people because they are of a different religion or color or height than others, then he is not my god. and if god can sit idly by while these things happen, then he is not my god.

"If God exists, and I truly don't believe he does, he will know that there are limits to human understanding. He was the one who created this confusion in which there is poverty, injustice, greed, and loneliness. He doubtless had the best of intentions, but the results have proved disastrous;"

.Veronika Decides To Die; Paulo Coelho

i believe in love.

and i just wanted to let everyone know. ♥

So over the past five days, I've watched approximately eighteen movies. On Thursday, Mandy, Chris and me went over Jess's house and we watched Underworld and Underworld: Evolution. On Friday we all went over Jess's again and we watched the three Resident Evil movies, which I haven't been able to get out of my head (hence, my layout and userinfo and what's under the cut guuuhhh). Then Saturday I watched The Hulk, and Robin Hood Men In Tights, then met my friends again and went to go see Wall-E (my second time watching it, GOD I LOVE THAT MOVIE) then I went over Mandy's house and we had a sleepover in which we watched Underworld: Evolution again, because she didn't get to see it on Thursday, then we watched The Mummy, and then Sunday we watched Sweet Home Alabama, and I went home and watched four episodes of Supernatural, then Jen came over and we watched both of the Mummy movies, and then yesterday I watched four episodes of Numb3rs, and I am on a serious Oded Fehr binge. I love that man, and I love the Resident Evil movies. Like, I hate them because all of the hot guys die, but I love them because.... um, I don't know why. Whatever.

Anyway, this came from loving Resident Evil and not being able to get it out of my head. No one has to read it. I just don't want it wasting space on my computer.

( i hold my memories close to me at night, and they smell like you, they feel like you. i wish you were here. i miss you. )


I'm in the process of doing that meme from Alison. Really. But I haven't updated in 5 days and I felt it was overdue. Now I have to go to bed before I pass out. Goodnight.

the continuation of my novel part one pages 1 through 5

the picture: my film!version of main character Geri Adana and love interest Dean Carver. I've been slightly obsessing over who my people are (exhibit one: ICON. exhibit two: WALLPAPER. etc.) so I figured, hey?! Why not? It's always eye-catching. :D

So here are pages 6-18...


( inside me passion's stirring - forgive me if you're divine )


So I have a three-hundred point spanish assignment that I haven't even thought about going near yet. Every time I think about it... I die a little on the inside. So I focus all my energy on writing this story (It's coming along quite nicely...) and I try to block out the real world. I have this horrible cough that burns my chest, too, so that is fun.

I was also thinking about getting a haircut (again). I really like this hairstyle (Keira Knightley at the Pride and Prejudice photocall in 2005) but I don't know if I can get my hair to do that. =_= I just... I want something different. And this new hairstyle thing... It feels like every time I get a new haircut, I'm reinventing myself. Not totally - just a tiny bit. It makes me feel ... I dunno. I can't explain it. It's just a good feeling. Plus, someone washing your hair for you in that warm water... ahhh. 8D

I also got an email from my "future husband" / good friend from Spain, Frances. I told him about my book. He was excited, said that I'm an american JK Rowling (AWWW) and to tell him the title of the book so that when it comes to Spain he can read it. (DOUBLE AWWWW) I haven't actually titled this story yet - I think that's my downfall with all the other stories I try to write - I give them titles then go from there, but this one... this one I started with "Nyte, 28-9-2007," and went from there. Whatever came out, came out. And it's still goin' strong!

So anyway. I'm gonna write more and cruise my friends page. ♥♥

title: '¿Quien Me Iba A Decir?'
by: omgorgasm @ ofthehunt
pairing: Steven Gerrard, Steven Gerrard/Xabi Alonso, Fernando Torres
rating: R for language
disclaimer: fake, all of it (thank god)
author's note: so... there is a story behind this fic. i was taking a course over the summer for creative writing and one of the prompts was to write about an article in real life... and I chose to do a fic based on an article about stevie saying he was happy fernando was coming to liverpool. and i'm sort of multitasking right now, so... (i'm watching qaf season three as i update)




Here @ ofthehunt

title: 'Where the Devil Hangs His Coat' (at a crossroads;)
by: omgorgasm @ ofthehunt
pairing: Xabi Alonso, Xabi Alonso/Steven Gerrard, Xabi Alonso/Fernando Torres
rating: R for language
disclaimer: a small fic, all from my imagination





HERE @ ofthehunt

fic time.

title: 'Comfort' (Sadness brings us together)
by: omgorgasm
pairing: Xabi Alonso/Iker, but not really. if i have to say a pairing, that is it, i suppose.
rating: R for language
disclaimer: simply a prediction for the future - i have no control over what happens in the world cup 2010
author's note: hmm, nothing to say. had a dream about this scenario, decided to fic!it.


»»» comfort is the greatest pain-reliever

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